....And one day she found her prince and he made her his princess and they lived happily ever after....

That day, she was amazed to discover that when he was saying,
"As you wish,"
....what he meant was, "I love you."

BUTTERCUP: But what if something happens to you? WESTLEY: Hear this now: I will come for you. BUTTERCUP: But how can you be sure? WESTLEY: This is true love. You think this happens every day?

I believe in fairy tales. I will be living one, some day.
.... You can count on that.

Sacred Heart.

I just want to start this off by saying how much I appreciate H2O every single fucking day in my life. Seriously. This band gets me through everything. When times get tough, I rise above.

Secondly, over the weekend that had just passed, I had the best Valentines Day that I've ever had. I spent it with Jenna and we had an AWESOME girls day. She came over and we made food, baked cookies, ordered pizza, played video games, and talked about boys and other things. These kinds of days are so nice, and they'll never get old to me. I'm glad we're friends now, even after such weird circumstances. More proof that anything is possible.

• TODAY AT WORK:
  

That is Andrew. He's surely one with the ladies and he's obsessed with Batman. He helps out with the coffee at work and he certainly brightens my day, every day that he's there. I'm thankful that I'm the only person at work he gives hugs to. If this kid can't make you smile, I don't know what can.

• 

This was posted in the "sound-off" column in the local newspaper. I found it hilarious.

• LARGE SAUSAGE:
  

I couldn't help but laugh at this. I may have a one track mind but it never fails to keep me entertained.

• Other than this, I'm going to have to go ahead and agree with Ariel about helping people. I'm even going to quote her on it, because I think she's dead on.
  

  "I love the feeling I get after helping someone, friend or not, even if it's not a big deal. I appreciate every little effort I get from people, even if I don't express it."

I feel the same way. I love helping people. It makes me feel good. Whether it be giving someone advice, teaching a 4th grader how to do long division, or giving a friend some assistance with a paper that's due, I just really enjoy doing it. I don't ever want anything in return I just enjoy the gratification of being able to make other peoples' lives easier, while at the same time making mine easier as well.

....That's all for today. More soon.

Things aren't falling apart, things are falling in place.

I have a lot to write about.

I'm going to start with messages I received from people (who I've chosen to remain anonymous, just in case) over the past couple of days.... all making a significant difference in making my everyday life better. These meant a lot. So, from most recent, here goes.... also with added commentary:

• From someone I dated and stopped talking to.... "I just wanted to say I'm sorry for what I did and what I put you through. I should have been honest but I just didn't know how to deal with the situation, so I'm sorry".

This was from someone who I honestly would've never expected a sincere apology from and I couldn't be more taken by surprise, and/or appreciative of it. I know it's not always easy for everyone to be able to do the right thing.... everybody makes mistakes and nobody is perfect, but not everybody tries to make things right.... But you know what. it's always better late than never. That's all I really wanted, anyway.

• "I'm glad we're friends. I love you and you mean a lot to me. I want you to come over tomorrow and you and I can do something nice together. I'll pay for you gas or whatever. I'd just really like to spend some time with you. You never seem to want to anymore, and I'm feeling less horrible lately and I wish you were around me. You're great".

Together like glue. :)

• In response to when I asked a friend of mine what his opinion is on why guys always seem to run away from me: "It's cause you are pretty inside and out and guys can't handle that".

I don't think I'll ever be able to comprehend why or how things like this are true, but I'm confident that one day someone special will come along and not be scared to put their heart out there and pick apples off of the top of the tree and we'll live happily ever after. Funny, though. I just saw, "He's Just Not That Into You", last night. ....Shockingly true. I have hope for me and I refuse to settle for someone I don't find completely amazing, inside and out and know for sure they feel the same about me. Somewhere out there, there's someone capable of loving me as much as I know I am capable of loving them. I won't settle for anything otherwise.

• "I'm willing to forget about the magic bullet completely just to get to hang out with you again :)".

This is pretty self-explanatory. It made me smile.

Today I thought about how I'm proud of the fact that I don't need anyone to make me happy.... In metaphoric terms, that I already have "the cake" (and this blog is a good example) and I'm able to make it myself, without depending on someone. My cake tastes delicious by itself, sans icing. But when a boy comes along, that's what he'll be.... the icing to my cake. Of course he'll be a delicious addition, but he's not necessary for my cake to still be awesome. Make sense? It does to me.

• Something I appreciated today: A bunch of things. Ariel telling me that I inspired her to make her own "self-happiness" blog, the way outside is starting to smell like Spring, how Tuesday night I drove to loud music with my windows down and wasn't cold, new friends and girl talks.

Today, again I spent my break at school in the book store. I really enjoy it in there. I spent my 2 hours there reading comics. MUCH better than the stupid internet.

• Something I didn't procrastinate doing today: Bought a bunch of stuff from Target I needed to get for school, bought another photo album so I can (hopefully) put the rest of my pictures away.

• Something I'm looking forward to: The best Valentines Day date ever!

• Someone who inspired me today: Lou Koller, who reminded me that the people who I look up to the most and am inspired by are truly into the music I play. If that's not one of the highest feelings of gratification, I don't know what is.
  

There's more I wanted to add, but I should really start writing things down during the course of the day so I don't forget what I'd like to include. I'll pick up with this later!

I found this on Kevin's myspace and it is definitely one of the highlights of my day:

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I want you to think about it long and hard.

• Something I appreciated today: The weather and my windows being able to stay open throughout the day. Fresh air is incredible. The smell and feel of clean flannel sheets and the look of a freshly vacuumed room. Another day with the house all to myself and I've enjoyed it very much thus far.

• Something productive I did today: Punched holes in my science papers so I could put them into a 3 ring binder. I cleaned my room and vacuumed the entire upstairs. Also, I emptied the dishwasher.... I thought I'd do my parents a favor.
  

• Something good I did for my body today: More pampering of the skin and I don't think it's ever felt softer.

Story of my life:

A specific song from Grease is stuck in my head this morning.

I woke up this morning and stumbled into the kitchen as per usual on my Saturday's off. I was in the middle of cooking myself a scrumptious breakfast as my dad walks inside and tells me, "Hey, you got a postcard in the mail". Rummaging through the pile of mail my dad had brought in, I found something that instantly started my day off awesomely:

A postcard from Dave Heck.... all the way from Israel!! Now I have something to smile about all day long. Seriously, WHO DOESN'T love getting things in the mail (minus bills and other things of that sort). Getting something totally unexpected in the mail from someone is one of the best feelings ever. At least for me it is. Wouldn't you agree? Thanks, Dave. You made my day. You fucking rule, that postcard rules, and I miss you tons.

• Recently, I've made amends with an old friend; made good friends with a girl who I didn't even know but wanted to hate for no (good) reason; and reconnected with a boy I stopped talking to. It's weird how things work out, but I really believe that "fate" only takes you so far and then it's up to you to do the rest. It feels so good to hang out again because I missed it, to have made a new friend who's great with "girl talks", and to catch up with and know that I wasn't forgotten about.... only the opposite.

• Something I appreciate today: Having the house to myself!! It's a rarity! Oh, the possibilities are ENDLESS! Let the fun begin. ....Starting now. (Also, I'd like to add that the weather today was fantastic. I had my windows open. Spring soon!)
  

• Something good I did for my body today: Totally pampered my skin and it ruled.

• How someone helped me today: Teeny showed me what the hell I was doing wrong with my curling iron in order to not get those ugly krinkles at the bottom of my hair. She also bought me coffee and some frozen yogurt :)

• Something I learned today: The magic bullet theory isn't real and less water gets on you if you walk in the rain instead of run.

• Nothing like a friend who you can call over to do either everything or absolutely nothing with together. I'm glad I have that back again.

Other than all of that, I really enjoy this:

You can't hurry love, no you'll just have to wait.

• Someone who inspired me today: Josh Laskin, for his advice he gave me years ago that I stumbled upon in an old e-mail (I have a habit of never deleting and reading these) and he said this,
  "I'm gunna say do it, because you only live once and it's stupid to keep your feelings inside".

100% true.

• Something good I did for my body today: Forced myself to do about 35 minutes of Wii fit since nobody's available to go to the gym. I did Yoga and hula-hooping and went for a short run in the park with all of my Wii friends, including The Hulk, Adolf Hitler, Snoopy, and Borat. Also, I've been doing really well with eating healthy..

• How I helped someone today: Today when I was at the grocery store, I directed some older gentleman to where the peanut butter and jelly was because he was unfamiliar with the store.

• Something I appreciated today: The lady at the checkout counter at the grocery store. I didn't catch her name but she was such a sweet 'lil lady. She even bagged everything into groups (bread/veggies/meat/etc) for me. She had good manners and a nice sense of humor. She told me that her mom would yell at her when she went grocery shopping because she didn't know how to bag the things she bought.
  

It's a fatal mistake to live your life ruled by fate, it's on your hands to change your own sorry state....

Life is long but it's too short to go through each day taking the enjoyment of simple things for granted. That's what this blog is about.... only positive things that occur in my day to day life. Something that happened recently made a red light go off in my head asserting that I need to start concentrating on me and what I need to do to get my life in the order that I want it to be in.

I realized that I have the ability to really make the best of the most shitty situations. I'm trying not to take the simple things in my daily routines for granted. I realized that I have the ability to make a change for the better in myself, because I want to, and that achieving my goals (little by little: baby step, by baby step) and living my dreams are absolutely achievable.

I've been wanting to do something like this for a while so I figured that now would be a better time than ever. These are things that make me happy, and since happiness is proven to be contagious, then it just might brighten your day as well. Here goes.

SO, for today here's what I've got:

• *This morning I skipped class because I was late and didn't feel like walking into the class tardy. Instead, I ditched the typical "internet" boredom-routine I usually would fall into and I spent 4 hours in the book store at school reading various material. It helped me relax and sort my thoughts. Especially awesome was the soundtrack of whatever radio station that was playing while I was in there, consisting of:

- Sponge - Plowed
- Jimmy Eat World - In The Middle
- AFI - Miss Murder
- Kings of Leon - Use Somebody
- Fall Out Boy - I Don't Care
- Muse - Knights of Columbia
- Sublime - Wrong Way
- Bush - Glycerin
- Mighty Mighty Bosstones - Rascal King

• * A boy (I used to date, I suppose) who I've lost contact with and haven't spoken to in almost a year and I started talking again. I filled him in with the things going on in my life and he did the same. Long story short, he told me this,
  

  "Your ex boyfriend sucks. That's a terrible reason to break up with you. He doesn't know what he's missing out on. You're such an awesome girl and you deserve way better than that".

  Coming from him, that's huge. ....And it made me feel really good.
  

• I was thinking.... anything is possible if you give it a little time. But there's no use in lying to yourself and thinking things are so set in stone when in reality you don't know what the future will bring. How can you be so certain about something you can't be certain about?

• "Why do men do the things they do? We are so weak and cowardly-- perhaps women are right to despise us. In love, we behave like children lost in the dark". -Batman

• Maybe people are so interested and obsessed with comic book characters and superheroes because that way they have a way of relating themselves to those characters. ....That their favorite superhero really does hold a true-to-life representation of their character and can show how and why a person feels the way they do and why they do the things they do. After all, don't we all strive to be like our role-models? I don't think it matters if they're fictional or real -- either way, regardless, fictional characters have traits and personalities, too. And by better understanding a person's role models, inspirations, and the things they relate themselves to, the better you're probably be able to understand that person.

• Something I've learned today: ENTROPY: "Disorganization", and we're constantly fighting against equilibrium.

• Someone I was inspired by today: My science teacher. He's so interested in everything and his curiosity is never ending. His wife and him have been married for 60 years. Everything about him is a sign that there still is hope for the good life I want to live, also.
  

• Never underestimate the power of a good, "Awwwwwwwwwww", after something that's been said. It easily warms the heart.

• I helped somebody today by: Picking up some sort of gift card that fell out of a classmate's pocket and gave it back to her. She wouldn't have known otherwise.

• Good thing for my body I did today: Went to the gym with Janine. We're going to do a Yoga class on Tuesday and Thursday nights! Today I ran about 6 miles.